I stop for coffee, people passing by talk of awareness, something to do with perception or knowledge, the words 'not sure' linger.
What of awareness as a practise of everyday life? A way of being aware of your thoughts, beliefs, emotions, and actions. Having a sense of how you are being each day, when you are alone and when with others, and beginning to have an understanding of how you are with your self, and how you are with others. How do you practise awareness?
Moments, making moments meaningful. Hesitating, stopping, dwelling for a second or two. An itch on my neck. How does that feel? I feel like rubbing it, but I hesitate and wonder about that itch. It seems to spread up slightly into my scalp, a sense akin to burning, or warming an area of my body, I imagine my blood forming a little longer in that spot. The itch on the back of my neck has faded away. Now I'm aware of another itch, my left eye. I come back to writing this, my eye itch still there, I let it linger. A noise from outside the window, an engine, not a car, sounds like a generator, something to do with road-works, maybe a pneumatic drill will start up. I come back to my hand typing these letters onto this iPhone screen, the end of my index finger is becoming a little sensitive, a change to typing with my middle finger.
These moments go on throughout the day. Most of the time these moments are imperceptible. I don't hesitate and try to articulate about what's happening. I don't try to record how my body is sensing things. Why should I? Maybe a practise of everyday awareness will help me feel a little more compassionate, maybe kinder. Maybe when I use the word 'awareness' for my self I'm thinking of this imperceptible world, and making these outer and inner worlds more perceptible. Forming a sense of knowing for my self. Making moments magical.